In this light-speed escape from my world, I feel like a shell abandoned by time, deeply trapped in the quagmire of the past, unable to extricate myself, and unwilling to do so. Until that moment, I once again made that seemingly brave yet truly cowardly decision—to attempt to reconnect with an old friend from years ago, hoping to retrieve those long-decayed fragments of memory in the illusory world of the internet.
However, what responded to me was not the long-lost warmth, but the cold reality. Some friends, like strangers, revealed an insurmountable distance in their words; others, disguised in mockery, seemed to laugh at my foolishness and persistence; many more were an eternal wait, like a stone sinking into the sea, with no news. All of this was like a sharp blade, repeatedly slicing through my already fragile heart.
I finally understood that the past is not just a heavy burden, but also an unhealable wound; every touch is a cruelty to myself. Those beautiful memories, in hindsight, are nothing but poison, making me indulge, making me lose myself, making me unable to face this cruel reality.
I have finally decided to completely sever ties with the past. No longer will I let those decayed memories bind my steps, nor will I allow those false illusions to confuse my soul. I will throw everything from the past, whether laughter or tears, whether happiness or pain, into the trash can and let them go to hell!
I want to bid farewell to that self who lives in memories, that weak, incompetent self who only knows how to escape reality. I want to stand up bravely and face this world full of challenges and opportunities. Even if the road ahead is unknown, even if difficulties abound, I will grit my teeth and move forward step by step.
Past, get lost! I no longer need you, nor do I miss you. I want to use my own hands to create my own future. I want to use my own feet to tread every corner of this world. I want to use my own heart to feel every bit of warmth and beauty in this world.
So, goodbye, past! You are no longer my cage, nor my shackles. I have decided to completely sever ties with you and draw a clear line. From now on, I only belong to the present, only to the future. And you, just roll out of my world forever!